I did have a fair whack put away,around 3.5k but used it to survive as business had died down 4 months without much work and it went, on paying bills living etc,soon goes costs me around !.3k a month just to keep afloat , that is without food or diesel
Marc, stop digging, the hole is getting bigger.
Re-read all your posts, get a pen and paper and look at the evidence. You'll feel better for getting a grip of your own life not me or others telling you how to do it, afterall you've been in the business 10 years.
Here's a few starters
Income £40,000 over 8 months..... exceptional
Virtually zero on business expenditure..... brilliant
£3k just to live..... start looking here