I know you make a lot of this alcoholism, Tosh, but it does sound like you were in a bad shape. I also 'know' that a few of us on here over drink, and I'm no exception, from time to time, but for God's sake, why are you alive still?
The rest of us muddle through it, we do a bit too much, probably, but I doubt we are on the edge of death as you describe it. No wallet... no shoe etc. What's going on?