Happy...for the most part I am happy...WFP leaves me with many doubts...ie, are they clean, have I missed bits, etc, etc....
I also battle my own ego, in the past I had jobs where being seen as bigger, better, more cash to flash were how you were judged... I do hang onto those for some unknown reason...not that I would want to be in that world again...but from time to time I am embrassed to be a window cleaner....please don't start chopping me down..I am just being honest about me..I am not making any judgements about anyone else...and then on some days I am King of the world....
Yes I have 2 weeks where I am making very, very good money and then the following 4 are ok and the last 2 I have very little...but all in all even when those weeks are all full and I have more work than I can cope with...It will not be the money that makes me happy but my own perception of myself and how I think the world see's me....
It is easy to say stuff the world and let them think what they wish, I suppose I am getting soft in my old age (39!!!) but these things do bother me....
So happy some days and no so on others....
Cheers
Dave.